I guess bipolar made me scared.  The hyper moods, the wild anger, the mindless sex, drugs and rock n roll.  Everything that goes with it made me scared.  The dark depression, the loneliness and the fear of myself.

So when I saw this little red book peeping at me in Waterstones it really grabbed my attention.  Fear.  It was all over me.  Fear of Doctor's, fear of medication, fear of hospitals, fear of my family and fear of my friends... I think you get the picture!

Susan's book at times is a litle over optimitic for me.  Sometimes I feel like okay, thats sounds easy, but in the real world...  But, at the same time, it offers some practical ways to change your thinking or change the way you speak to yourself and just little chinks like that can eventually bring down a wall of fear right in front of you.  I have to say, the book is so positive that I felt myself on a PMA (positive mental attitude) high for a few days afterwards.  I guess the more challening thing is staying in the fearless place. 

My fear is a bit like the weather, it doesn't seem in my control, it changes and doesn't always fit into my schedule.  But like the weather, if I prepare myself, I can cope with any front.  ​

I really enjoyed this book by Susan Jeffers and I really like that she includes the stories of lots of different people.  Really helpful overall.

Worth a read... if you arent afraid!

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Fearless, Essex, Jan 2013